It's that season again

A deja-vu feeling you can't avoid,

let's just hope this time its different.

Sometimes, fate and dreams can collide

Don't go looking too far,

          it might just be around the corner

Assumptions kill

Along with misinterpretation and misunderstanding..

When you're being misunderstood, do you choose to confront or remain silent?

If you know me well enough, you should know the thing I hate the ultimate most is being accused of things I did or didn't do.

Some people are just way over their heads.. this is too damn hilarious

Learning to walk again

Been listening to Foo Fighters for weeks, with Everlong spinning on repeat for the longest time ever.

The past week has been overly-dramatic, almost like episodes from some sinister American teen tv series.

I remember saying once to a friend a few years ago how I wish my mundane life could use a little more drama like hers.

Now she's sitting back, munching on some caramel popcorn at the sideline watching my silly lil drama, laughing of course.

Everyone is probably over and done with that phase, you know, the one where you're just out of college,

experiencing everything exciting involving alcohol, parties, summer flings, multiple heartbreaks, rock n' roll and drugs (nah.. just kidding)

Yeah, so it feels like i'm just starting out that phase,

When the people around me has moved on and seemed to be settling down,

leaving me stuck in those silly little high school drama

But no-spank-you, it's not fun anymore.

So begone drama-rama, there's way more important things in life which require the attention.

Just a self-reminder, I'd like to apologize to some homies for subconsciously making them unhappy with my supposedly harmless remarks.

I had no idea it offended them so badly and here's a promise to never generalise or make stupid jokes again.

Felt really bad because who knew I could hurt anyone with words, (arghhhh... wtf was I thinking !!)

Hopefully that they're convinced I'm still the same ol friend from 1o years ago who hasn't changed a bit,

Not any prettier, wiser, wilder and definitely not any meaner.

Let's start over,

learning to talk, learning to walk again.

Whoa

Panadeine really works..

If only the painkiller works on all other kinds of pain

A good friend of mine told me that I've been having wayyyy too much fun, so hurting the back probably gave me a good time to rest on the bright side.

(translated: u deserve this. serves you right. hahhaha)

To stop and think.

It sounded kinda mean but it struck me that there lies some truth.

Partying seems like the only escape zone I find these days to forget about the real troubles, to give myself excuses, to not face my demons.

Along the way I probably lost some of myself, lost my direction.

Maybe i was too blinded by the alcohol and fun that was going around.

I guess it's about time that I spend more to think through what I really want to do in life because ultimately I'm not happy where I'm at.

From now on, it will be okay

          ...to not party and go insane every weekend

          ...to not have a new photos posted every fortnightly

          ...to not know what's the latest single by David Guetta

          ...to stay home on friday night watching How I Met Your Mother

          ...to have some family and 'me' time on the weekends

          ...to redeem my passion on things I have neglected a while

There's a long way to go. I just need some determination.